The Wedding

Sept. 11 my little brother got married - and it was a WONDERFUL weekend... it was in Greensboro, GA at my grandparents old church and the reception was at the Ritz Carlton Reynolds Plantation. I am sorry that the pictures are in random order - I am still not good at posting slide shows :) The pictures range from a few of their engagement parties, to the bachelorette party, to all the other events from the wedding weekend.

Ben and I were both in it, and Campbell was the flower girl - but dont tell her... because she called herself a bridesmaid. :) There were so many sweet moments that weekend - and so many more came flashing back from mine and Brians childhood... it was so fun growing up with a brother (i didn't always think that) and now he is so much more like my friend. I cried a good portion of the weekend, including the whole time i walked down the aisle - but it was so overwelming walking toward my little brother and feeling so proud of him and thankful that God had given him this amazing girl. I don't know if anyone could even hear me over my tears during my rehersal dinner speech, but I did my best to get it out :) My family was kidding me about winning the award for most sniffles in a speech!

We stayed in a villa on the lake with my parents and Brian - and I was so thankful I got a little extra time with him before he started his own family. Something I will remember forever is Campbell laying in Brian's lap watching cartoons the morning of the wedding... I guess she (along with Mickey Mouse) was calming the wedding nerves :) Campbell even got to pray for Savannah and all the bridesmaids before the ceremony - it was a really special moment. Savannah was a beautiful bride - her dress was one of my favorites of all times... and her shoes were amazing too. (thats why i had to include a picture!) they were covered in bling! Ms.Campbell even got to try them on since you know she loves some shoes :) Campbell did okay - but was all over the place during the ceremony. She walked up to the front okay and stood with the maid and matron of honor, right by Savannah. Which she thought was great considering Savannah is one of her favorite people AND she was wearing the most amazing princess dress and veil. :) Too bad she got curious and started playing with the veil during the ceremony, then proceded to come find me, then go sit with my mom, then go back up on stage, then go back to my mom... crazy. Oh well - guess she did pretty good for a three year old.
We all danced the night away to the best band ever and Campbell was still up for the big send off with sparklers at 11:45....

Campbell was just on cloud nine the whole weekend... she has been talking about this wedding longer than Brian and Savannah have - and she can't wait until her own! (her daddy and i are more than willing to wait...and wait...and wait) Just the other day on the way to church she said "Mommy and Daddy - what was your favorite part of the wedding? Mine was Vanny's dress!" Hilarious. She even fell asleep in the car on the way home from the weekend with her bow bouquet from the rehersal in her hands... priceless.

Congrats Mr. and Mrs. Brian Boyd! We love you...

Still Here

Yes, we are still here! After not posting in two whole months, I figured it was time... a lot has been going on, and blogging was low on the priority list. First of all, my brother got married this past weekend! We have been having lots of parties and celebrating the last few months, and this weekend the main event took place on Lake Oconee outside Atlanta. It was beautiful, sweet, and perfect. I cried most of the weekend (I know you are surprised) but I just adore and respect my little brother so much and could not be happier that Savannah is now an official part of the family... Ben and I were both in it, and so was Ms.Campbell. Pictures to come soon...

On a not so fun note, the fertility process (a full time job in itself) has kept me pretty busy the last few months. We have had 2 IuI's done, and still no pregnancy. This is becoming a real battle for me and my faith - and for the first time in the two and a half years that we have been traveling this road, I am really feeling the doubt and fear creeping in. I am just so hurt and angry - and just dont understand.
Its hard to know what to do next, where to go from here - and just how many more fertility treatments to do. My heart is still so hoping to adopt - even though Ben and I are still hoping for one more of our own.

Last night when I knew the second IuI did not work, I hit a very low point and today has been a real battle. Then I saw that a friend sent me the video of a friend of hers that had adopted from Ethiopia (a place I am interested in). At the end of the video, the mother said "Following God's plan for your life will.always.be.worth.it."
Those were exactly the words I needed for today... even though I am HURTING like I never have in all my life and am more BROKEN than I have ever been, this.will.all.be.worth.it. And if God shows me "why" by giving Ben, Campbell, and I a beautiful dark skinned baby boy like this one - I would be so very thankful for every bit of this pain...