Waiting

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried.
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said, "Child you must wait!"

"Wait? You say, wait!" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By FAITH I have asked, and am claiming Your Word."

"My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to WAIT?
I need a yes, a go-ahead sign,
Or even a no to which I can resign."

"And Lord you promised that if we believe
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!"

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, "You must wait."
So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting...for what?"

He seemed then to kneel and His eyes wept with mine,
And he tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run."

"All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want - but, you wouldn't KNOW ME."

"You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint,
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint."

"You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair,
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in me
When darkness and silence were all you could see."

"You'd never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of my Spirit descends like a dove.
You'd know that I give and I save... (for a start),
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of my heart."

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth thats beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God who makes what you have LAST."

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that "My grace is sufficient for thee,"
Yes, your dreams for your loved ones overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss! If I lost what I'm doing in you!"

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
THAT THE GREATEST OF GIFTS IS TO GET TO KNOW ME.
And though oft may my answers seem terribly late,
My wisest of answers is still but to WAIT."



i did not write this - but i could hug the person who did. somehow, they managed to put into words exactly what i am feeling these days, and what God is saying in return. many of you have been asking me how i am doing, or what the latest fertility news is - and this poem sums it up. we are waiting. and i am tired of waiting. BUT - i can say that i am desperate and needing my God like i never have in all my life, and that has been a good, good thing... and i am thankful for it.

Halloween and such

 

 

 

 

We aren't huge Halloween people at our house, so we like to call it Reformation Day. :) That didn't stop us from having a really fun weekend though! Campbell actually understood the "trick or treat" thing this year, and of course loved dressing up. The first few pictures are of our little ballerina... she was too cute and looked so big running up to each door. We already had the costume since she started taking ballet this fall, but I have recently taken her out for now - I think she was just too young. She really liked it, but it was more music and playtime that ballet. Can't wait to put her back in a class next fall though. At least we didnt waste the outfit!

Friday night our friends Kendall and Will had a party at their hunting lodge in Guntersville. Campbell was a doctor that night, with pink scrubs that had Dr.Campbell monogrammed on them. (a sweet friend gave them to us) She even had a little play doctors kit with all the gear, and Ben brought her shoe covers, a surgeons hat, etc home from the hospital. But, she wouldn't keep anything but the scrubs on - so we switched to a ballerina for trick or treating. :) Saturday night we trick or treated with friends, and Sunday night our church had a huge "tailgate" on the soccer fields where each small group tailgates, and the kids trick or treat at each one.

The other random pictures above were too cute not to share - we went "puddle jumping" on our street a while back, and Campbell was thrilled that she got to wear only her swimsuit and rainboots. That girl loves puddles - and this time she didnt get in trouble for getting in them! Daddy even joined in the fun since he LIVES in his boots too - mommy just took pictures. :)